A dream brought by a well known demon... and lady gaga too?!?

So I am having this dream and it's quite unusual. Towards the end of it, this guy takes another guy throws him down on the ground and proceeds to chop off his hand before grabbing a sledge hammer and swinging it over his head into the guy's back side.

Yeah, it's an extreme visual and quite graphic. Which only led me to believe that it wasn't me. I think I was slightly put off by it, and it was in my head.

To me, that is usually what signals me either out of the dream state or into a lucid dreaming state.

Anyway, when I encounter thoughts like this, the current thing I do is in my head say "Hello! Who is there?". If something is present, I either get a response or a blue circle in my vision.

Well, I got both. I got the circle first and then I got a name. It's a fairly common name, 3 syllables, starts with "B" and ends in "met".

I asked "show yourself", and to my surprise in my mind's eye, I saw the image of it. If you can figure out the name you'll more than likely find a picture of it. Anyway, the image I got had the creature in browns and reds and was kind of a profile view with its right leg leading toward me.

The conversation continued briefly as I said in my mind "You're not supposed to be here."

To which it's reply was "I know."

I assume at that point he left.

I was doing a little research about the dream vision and the creature when I came upon a story about pop artist Lady Gaga. Apparently she had a similar dream encounter where someone had their hand(s?) cut off. Her dream involved a creature by the same name.

Crazily enough, the dream is also a symbol of something related to the "illuminati".

I use quotes for the supposed cultish group, because I think it's a way for someone to feel like they are bigger or better than they really are.

The conspiracy wonks out there attribute the group to mind control tactics, which only leads me to the opinion that whoever it is, can only be of the lowest quality human. Otherwise why would you need to puff yourself up in that way.

Do I think there's anything to this? It doesn't matter. It's purely just coincidence. By that, I do mean it's coinciding by concept with something similar.

I would like to think there was some greater meaning to having such a dream or visitation, but I am not that deluded. Showing up in my dreams and twisting them to a different perspective is a good way to piss me off. I don't care if it's some kind of friendly or invited "guest", I don't appreciate being manipulated or toyed with.

Maybe this will serve as warning.

Vibram Five Fingers - Snugness

I finally got a pair of vibram sprint model shoes (in black). At first I thought they were the knock off, but I am fairly sure I got legit versions of the shoe.

Anyway, I thought they were knockoff because they were really tight in the toes! Yeah, it turns out that tight fit on the toes is pretty much standard.

Here's the thing. The shoe stretches after wearing it for a long (and I really mean long) while. The shoe needs to have a tight fit in order to stay properly on the foot. The shoe is basically a coating for the bottom of your foot, so it's basically a think skin layer with fabric support.

Anyway, I have learned some things about the tightness and fit of the shoe.

First is that you are not ready for how tight these shoes are when new out of the box. I mean it's really freaking tight. You might be able to wear them for an hour and that's about it. The next day it'll be two hours and you're going to have sore toes. Bear with them for a couple more days at this rate.

After the first week, I ended up wearing them outside in the rain. This caused them to loosen up a lot, so as they dried, I used that opportunity to stretch the toe pockets a bit more.

Even weeks later the shoe is quite snug, but it's not really tight. I've worn them all day.

I think the only problem I have now with the shoes is that the sprints look like I am wearing mary jane style shoes.

Yeah, forget the part where I have shoes with toes.

My older pair, are now too big. Seriously, the shoe is now loose on my feet. They are comfortable for just lounging in or doing some simple housework, but they're probably past the point where I can go for walks in them.

Knowing this, I have really relied on my newer sprints. I wear them almost all the time now and are my shoe of choice when I am going to be walking or whatever.

Lemp Mansion - The Third Face.

So I was looking again at the picture I analyzed at Lemp Mansion.



I think that's when I saw what my brother was talking about. He said he saw a 3rd face. Today I found the 3rd face!



It looks to me to be someone with long dark hair so that's what I outlined on the marked up graphic.



Anyway, take it for what you will. Here is the original post.

Also I apologize for my sloppy art skills. I don't really have any.

Going Barefoot.

I've been trying out something different lately. I've gone almost 4 weeks without wearing proper shoes. Translation, I'm barefoot.

I've had help though. I've supplemented my barefootedness with water socks, driving moccasins and of course "fivefingers" shoes.

There are moments where I have to wear a proper shoe. But they have been few and far between. The most prominent is of course bike riding. I am trying to ride the bike every day and try to get a better handle on being active.

It's really hard tho. I kind of injured my back during my training workouts. It's hampered my ability to be active as I would rather not work out because of the pain.

But back to being barefoot. I'm really enjoying it. The fivefingers shoes I found were a knockoff brand of the original vibram brand. Somewhat similar but yet somewhat cheapened by the fact they are knockoffs.

I'm not really getting into the knockoffs, but it make me want to say to the vibram company that when it becomes so hard for a consumer to buy a legitimate product that the suppliers can't even keep legit products in stock, this leave the consumer to seek outside means in order to obtain said product.

Honestly, I'd love to have a pair of actual vibram fivefingers, if they were accessible. The only way currently is to HOPE that a local store has a pair in exactly your size, or that the website actually has a pair.

Heaven forbid that you actually have to spend extra tho. $75 is a bit much for the basic pair... I'll get to that in a second.

My feet are on the smaller end of their line. I wear a size nine shoe, but I have a foot that is under 10 inches in length. This means I literally am at the bottom end of the mens shoe line.

I suppose I could try to go to the womens shoes, but they're slightly narrower. And by slightly, I exaggerate that they aren't slight.

The other part that gets me is that if these shoes were really set to the european scale then a size 39 would be the same for men as for women... they aren't even close.

Somehow they made their own sizing numbers. This makes no sense, because some sellers won't give you where their numbers come from. In the knockoffs, I wear a size 42/41, wheras I would wear a 40 in vibram's actual line.

It's a whole size difference which when it comes to fivefingers, this is extremely important.

Why do you say? Because if the shoe isn't exactly right on with the foot you'll get a blister because its too lose.

I got a couple of blisters. They went away quickly of course, but I have compensated somewhat in adjusting the shoe straps.

That being said, I totally love the fivefinger shoe. It's like placing a glove on your feet and then still going around barefoot. You really feel the grass go between your toes. You feel the textures of the ground. You feel every crack and every little impurity. However you don't feel the sharpness of the rock, or the sting of the thistles. All the positives without all of the negatives!

I would gladly pay full price for a legitimate vibram... if they were readily available. They just aren't.

You need to have it accessible to try them on... learn what the correct size is and what fits best. You can't really do that online, although that's the way the vibram company says is best.

I think that's a bit delusional, as you really should try them on first.

I spend countless hours in my five fingered shoes.

Now I don't presume to speak for people with foot problems or podiatrist or advocates of the barefoot style. I don't side with any of them. The only reason I am going barefoot is that it was something that I felt like I should do. So, I am doing it.

I've been going to workouts. Excellent results. Leg strength is way up, but that's due to the stability of not wearing a training shoe. Some weight lifters go barefoot anyway.

I've also felt a need to get in touch with the ground a lot more. It's no kind of religious or metaphysical thing. I consider that I need to get in touch with my body in the way nature should interact with it a whole lot more closely.

If the idea of having your toes separated is not ideal for you, I would suggest trying the vivo barefoot. I do have to say it is more expensive than the vibram. (btw, the vibram fivefingers was 2007's time magazine invention of the year)

I don't know if it's made me feel lighter, but I am enjoying the experience so much that I want a second pair.

I actually purchased a 2nd pair on e-bay, but it turned out to be the completely wrong size. I'll resell them later this summer as they are perfect for the colder months. I'd love a pair just like them in my size.

Which only makes me want 2 more pairs. The "classic" for the very basic use and the "flow", so I can wear them well into the later months of the year.

The "flow" replaces what I found out was a winter based shoe model, which kind of represented a boot. I kinda wished they kept producing that model. That one's pretty cool looking.

What really is a blessing?

I have pondered long and hard about this and I have arrived at some interesting conclusions.

1) A blessing is something that is written upon something else.

Think of a piece of paper. The paper is nothing more than that until it is blessed with writing. It can make it a note, a story, or even a book.

2) A blessing writes a message onto the spirit.

There is a spiritual essence/energy that exists with everything. It's what the entire world is made of. In the book "Hostage to the Devil", Malachi Martin says that "spirit is the basis of all reality" it "would not only be boring without spirit; it would have no meaning whatsoever."

3) A blessing covers, but yet reveals.

Think of it as a gift. In my taking a reiki class, I was "attuned" but when you look at the sign language for "bless" you see that it's a combination of something being blown into and laid upon. This is basically (and from a very basic level conceptually) what happens during a reiki attunement.

4) It changes the nature of the thing being blessed.

When it comes to things like blessing food, it's been researched that blessing the food will change its qualities to something that is more beneficial than before. In some cases it changes the pH from acidity to alkaline

5) It never goes away.

If you are blessed with a child, that stays with you for your entire life. The bible even claims that a blessing can exists for generations.

leading to:
6) It gets passed on from parent to child.

If you are blessed with beautiful eyes or naturally curly hair, that gets passed on to your descendants.


I am going to consider the topic more, but I am sure that intent is a part of the whole idea of blessing, which in cases of ill-intent show that a curse works in much the same way. Just take the concepts and apply the negative to them

I am looking for what can take away a blessing. Currently I have not seen anything that does so and I am sure to be questioned as to why I would want that sort of thing to be done.

If a blessing is done as some kind of binding, then even with positive intent, the result may be unwarranted. This is concerting to me, as I perceive it should be my choice whether to receive a blessing or not.

To that I will consider it further.

Reiki: A Frustrating Omen

I was preparing to travel to see my family back home in iowa, when I came across a peculiar piece of text while reading a book on paradoxes. The text was from matthew 13.

The passage from Matthew 13 reads:

53 When Jesus had finished these parables, he moved on from there.
54 Coming to his hometown, he began teaching the people in their synagogue, and they were amazed. "Where did this man get this wisdom and these miraculous powers?" they asked.
55 "Isn't this the carpenter's son? Isn't his mother's name Mary, and aren't his brothers James, Joseph, Simon and Judas?
56 Aren't all his sisters with us? Where then did this man get all these things?"
57 And they took offense at him. But Jesus said to them, "Only in his hometown and in his own house is a prophet without honor."
58 And he did not do many miracles there because of their lack of faith.

I was told this information in preparation for the kind of response I would be expecting from my family back in iowa.

You see, my family is what you would consider as fundamentalist. In some ways it's kind of a good thing, and in other ways it's kinda bad. The ways in which it is good is that they really have a good grasp on the various passages in the bible, but in other ways, it is like a more rigid approach to concepts. Instead of understanding the concepts and applying them today, a fundamentalist will instead prefer to hold on to the ideals of eras gone by.

I used to be that way, but I don't think that's what God's been pointing me towards in the last 7 or so years. (and possibly longer)

For me, learning reiki was a matter of me learning to utilize the gift that God bestowed upon me already and becoming better at it. (I was already able to do scanning and energy transfer well before the class, as it was natural) I totally believe that reiki is a gift that comes directly from God.

However, this past weekend, I don't think everyone was seeing it that way. I gave brief moments of energy to my older brother (as he was completely wiped of energy) and my sister (who wanted some help with her sinuses), but those were just short moments where I could just pass a bit of energy. It's nowhere near the hour that it usually takes me to "perform a treatment".

I tried explaining it to my other brother, and I had him hold his hand out. He said it's warm, but he didn't see it as healing or anything like that.

To me, it's a bit frustrating to see people who could obviously use some of the reiki energy, but they just don't seem interested or open to it. I think it's all the more frustrating when it's family.

The deal with reiki or the passage in matthew is that there is a paradox with people that need healing and their willingness to actually receive it. You can't heal with reiki if the person doesn't want to be healed. It's actually in the handbook. Not much you can do about it.

Just like the man who said he has no sin, there is someone who says that they don't need healed. Now, I don't know if I have a clue about what I am able to do or sense, but I am fairly sure I can feel people's pain and I can attest from what I have sensed that everyone could use healing.

I feel the numbness in their limbs, I feel the sharp pain in the lower back, I feel the tension in their neck and I feel their headaches behind their eyes. I sense the sadness, happiness, boredom and frustrations of the people around me.

And it frustrates me as well.

A vision from a reiki healing session. - Location found!

I had a vision during my reiki class in that I saw a forest next to a mountain. At the time I didn't know what the forest was or where it was located.

Well, I briefly meditated on the forest again and came up with the words "Mount Fugiyama". (took only seconds, before the name popped up)

It's literally an older name for mt fuji in japan (I actually didn't know that, but thanks to wikipedia, I do now.). There's a forest that runs along the base of the mountain called Aokigahara forest.

It is perhaps one of the forests in the world where people say it's definitely haunted.

I will need to think on the place further.

The place is known as one of the two most popular places for suicide. The other being the golden gate bridge in san francisco.